Joshua 1:8 NKJV
“This Book of the Law shall not depart from your mouth, but you shall meditate in it day and night, that you may observe to do according to all that is written in it. For then you will make your way prosperous, and then you will have good success.”
I was reading Tozer again this morning and got to thinking about how much I actually think about God. I know that I don’t think about God enough. Not at all enough. That phrase Tozer used in an earlier article – Always and always God – comes to mind. Is that my life? If I am honest, I have to say no.
My friends liken me to the Energizer Bunny. I’m not really a Type A personality, but I like to keep busy. And my definition of “busy” is being way more busy than most of my friends. I like to have lots of projects going at the same time; I’m comfortable being a multi-tasker. So, I work, go to school, volunteer, write.
I’m very busy. And very occupied.
And it occurred to me this morning that I’m so busy that I’m occupied with keeping my life organized rather than being occupied with the Lord. Is there any time, any space, for me to stop and meditate on Him?
“You shall meditate in it day and night.”
Do I even have a day and night in which to meditate? Tozer wrote:
“The best way to control our thoughts is to offer the mind to God in complete surrender. The Holy Spirit will accept it and take control of it immediately. Then it will be relatively easy to think on spiritual things, especially if we train our thoughts by long periods of daily prayer. Long practice in the art of mental prayer (that is, talking to God inwardly as we work or travel) will help to form the habit of holy thought.” (Born after Midnight).
I would like to think that I’m surrendered to God, but if I’m honest, I know that there are many parts of my life that I want to control, rather than to give control to Him. I have to ask myself honestly whether or not I use all of my activities to fill a silence so that I can’t hear His voice. I hope that isn’t true, but I need to spend more time with the Spirit, asking Him to reveal my heart to me so that I don’t end up deceiving myself. Is there anything in my life that I would refuse to give up if He were to ask? Have I even asked Him if I should be doing those things? Ours is a very self-absorbed society based on having what we want when we want it. I know that I often don’t ask God about the decisions I make. It’s time that I started doing that.