It Was and Is Love

“When Jesus had lifted up himself, and saw none but the woman, he said unto her, Woman, where are those thine accusers? hath no man condemned thee? She said, No man, Lord. And Jesus said unto her, Neither do I condemn thee: go, and sin no more.” John 8: 10-11 King James Version

It was compassion and unconditional love from the heart of our precious Saviour that caused Him to say to the woman “Neither do I condemn thee: go, and sin no more.” He did not say go and prove to Me that you have changed. He said “go, and sin no more.” Yet so often when someone hurts us instead of us forgiving them and asking them not to do it again, we say “You will have to prove to me that you have changed.” We need to stop condemning people and start having compassion and unconditional love for them just as Jesus has for us.

It was the unconditional love of Jesus that lifted me up from underneath that bed in a mental hospital and it is His love that sustains me from day to day. One of my favorite songs through the years has been “Love Lifted Me” by James Rowe. The words to this beautiful song have inspired and encouraged me countless times “Love lifted me! Love lifted me! When nothing else could help Love lifted me!”

Indeed only compassion, understanding and the unconditional love that Jesus has for us can heal the anguish, the tears of hurt, the horror and the hidden scars that are buried deep in our hearts from years of abuse. There have been many times through the last three and a half years when satan attacked me with his fiery darts of criticism and sarcasm that the only thing that helped me was knowing that Jesus loves me. Not only does Jesus give us love; He is love.

I was raped on Thanksgiving Day in 1979. In 1980, I had to place my daughter for adoption because I did not have the money to feed and clothe her or provide for her needs. Plus not being able to take care of her financially, I was emotionally unstable and couldn’t trust myself to raise her as she needed to be raised. That was the hardest and the saddest day of my life when I had to take my beloved April Dawn to the adoption agency and place her for adoption.

Yet even though I was heartbroken and hurting so much that I can’t possibly put what I was feeling on that day into words, I did not want my daughter, April Dawn, to feel that there was anything wrong. Even though she was only five months old, I knew that she could pick up on my feelings so I played with her at the adoption agency and told her that I loved her. When they took her out of my arms at the adoption agency, I felt that my life was useless and that my world had ended.

However, Jesus had other plans for me. He knew that one day I would surrender to the mission field and serve Him full time. In His loving kindness, understanding and compassion, He gently put His arms of tenderness around me and rocked me close to His heart as He whispered softly to me “I love you, Joanne, and I understand and I feel your pain.” He has been rocking me every day since then. Only His love could have gotten me through that day and only His love can get me through the days now as there is not one day goes by that my heart does not miss my precious daughter.

Many people have emailed me and asked me if it is difficult for me to share my life in my devotions. The answer to that is yes, it is extremely difficult and painful. However, I know what it is like to be depressed to the point that you can?t go on. I know how it hurts and how frightening it is when your heart is shattered into thousands of tiny pieces. If sharing from my heart can help just one person, then it is worth it all.

It is not easy to go through something as traumatic as a rape and having to place your cherished and beloved daughter for adoption. In fact, it is impossible to go through it without the understanding, the support and the unconditional love of our precious Saviour. It was the unconditional love and compassion for us in the heart of our precious Saviour that caused Him to walk that long lonely road to Calvary and die for us on that cross of horror and excruciating pain. The heartache and pain that I suffered is nothing compared to the anguish and heartache that Jesus suffered for you and for me on that cross.

It is still His unconditional love for us that causes Him to say to us when we fail Him and hurt Him “Neither do I condemn thee: go, and sin no more.” No matter what you have done; no matter how many times you have hurt Him and failed Him if you will listen with your heart you will hear Him say to you “Neither do I condemn thee: go, and sin no more.” What a Saviour! What a friend, this Jesus of Nazareth! There is no one like Jesus!

JoanneCopyright 2008 by Joanne Lowe, all rights reserved.
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