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Why Is God Tearing Me Apart?

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Those who are dealing with Sex, Love & Porn Addiction (SLA) and/or Same Sex Attraction (SSA) often believe that God has abandonded them.

There is an incredible tug of war within. One side of the individual wants desperately to do God's Will while the other side aches for intimacy. Inner turmoil reigns between passion and Godly living. It is easy to feel as if one is drowning in a sea of emotions and no help is on the horizon. It seems an endless stuggle with no where to go for consolation and strength. One feels a victim of addiction and/or attraction. Frustration leads to feelings of futility. This futility kindles feelings of self-hatred and guilt as well as anger at God.

"How can God, who supposedly loves me, stand by and let me suffer so. Why is He allowing me to be tormented and in such emotional pain?"

I do not think God wants us to be torn up like this. Christ was full of compassion for *everyone* with whom he came in contact. The Bible is very clear that Christ is about healing, wholeness, forgiveness, grace, Peace, hope, love, renewal and victory.

John 3:16-17
For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life. For God sent not His Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through Him might be saved.

So if God is for us, who can be against us? Do not overlook Satan. Satan on the other hand is the master of deception and lies. It is his good pleasure to torment us. He is all about confusion, deception, anger, bitterness, brokenness, condemnation, guilt, fear, and chaos.

Ephesians 6:11-12
Put on the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil. For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.

John 8:44
Ye are of your father the devil, and the lusts of your father ye will do. He was a murderer from the beginning, and abode not in the truth, because there is no truth in him. When he speaketh a lie, he speaketh of his own: for he is a liar, and the father of it.

God loves you and wants you to have the Peace that passes all understanding.

1 Corinthians 14:33
For God is not the author of confusion, but of peace.

Colossians 3:15
And let the peace of God rule in your hearts.

John 14:27
Peace I leave with you, My peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.

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